Black Tears Are Falling Down Her Face

I'm crying. It's not fair. I never did anything to him, and yet he's so mean to me. There's no one on right now. I had plans tonight - lots of them. I was supposed to do a Bible study, which I did, then I was supposed to go to a movie with a bunch of people. So, I left the Bible study around 8 and realized that I had a lot of time to waste until the 9:35 movie, so I could stop by Ross's house and visit because it was on the way home. I called my mom to OK it. Then I called Ross's house to see if it would be alright to stop by. Well, Ross wasn't home, even though he had told me he was leaving the party at 8 or should be home around then, and at this time it was about 8:20. I didn't have a lot of gas in the car so I stopped at Sonic to decide what I was going to do. I called Ross's mother and asked her to have Ross call me on the cell phone as soon as he got home. Then I called Tipti about the movie, and she told me that I was just supposed to meet them there. I sat at Sonic for about 40 minutes before I finally decided I needed to go home and get ready. I came home and ate a little since I hadn't eaten since lunch, got some money, and left again. I arrived at the movie theater later than I had expected because apparently all the clocks in my house are slow except for the one in my mother's room that I thought was just fast. Anyway, I didn't see anyone there and thus assumed that they had already gone in, so I left. Got home around 9:45, still Ross hadn't called. I got on the internet thinking he could be on, but he's not here. The only person that actually appeared online was Lucas so I tried talking to him. Now it's copy/paste the conversation time. Wait, scratch that I already closed the window. Basically I was trying to keep up the conversation and I mentioned that we never talk anymore, and that I thought we should. Then I said something along the lines of "If I were to talk to you at school, would you wish I would just go away?" The next time I flipped to that screen it said that he appeared offline. I just lost it. I had an awful day. It was horrible. This was supposed to be a good weekend, but it failed miserably.

Double, Double, Toil and Trouble

-Macbeth. Ross is going to try out for that play, and he very well should. There's a character in there that's actually named "Ross", so he just has to be Ross. Apparently Mr. White refers to everyone by their character's names, so if someone else were to get the part of "Ross" in the play, it would confuse him to no end. He says he wants me to audition for the play. I couldn't do that. I've never done it before and I don't fare too well with rejection. I think it would be hard for me to bring myself to act in front of someone. I can't really explain it, but I'd feel incredibly awkward. Lizzie's running for Student Council Vice President against an incredibly fat girl (and I mean incredibly), a little girl that looks like Alexis's sister, and some kid named Anthony. She says she doesn't think she's going to win because she's not an eighth grader. Poor Lizzie. I remember the year before last she ran for something and lost to Ivanna. I'm not sure that any of you have met her, aside from Ashley, but she's severely annoying. Bleh. Anyway, Ross is trying to convince me to also try out for the play at the college. I told him I'd audition if he paid me. I'm trying to work out the figures but I'm thinking between five and ten dollars. It's not too much, but it's about at that point where he wouldn't be willing to pay me so I wouldn't have to do it. Thank Bob for Mitch Dooley. He's doing a huge load of work from our Economics book and all I'm doing is a crossword puzzle and answering 7 short answer questions. We're going to swap information tomorrow morning. It would take me hours to do all of this stuff. Calculus I'm going to do during Economics, and Environmental Science I'm going to do during Economics and lunch. I like how it works out this way. Need... sleep...

Uh!

I just made a freaking post and now it's gone. It completely disappeared. I'm really mad at blogger. It took me forever to do that stupid post because my computer's really slow and I had to change from screen to screen to put different stuff in there... it's hard to explain. The point is, I'm upset. And to think I was having a good day. It's so frustrating. I'm not even going to bother trying to redo the post. There was another post that I made that was there at first, but then disappeared. It doesn't need to do that again. I've just about had it.

TGI...F

I've decided against going to UT tomorrow. My mom wasn't too happy about the idea. She flipped out at me. Yesterday she had made it seem as though it was alright to not go, but when I told her today that It would be better that I didn't, she didn't take it too well. Anyway, many factors contribute to the decision to not go: 1. I'd miss AP Euro, and I know we're having a quiz 2. I'd miss AP Government, and I know we're having a quiz and this is the only class time to work on our group project 3. I don't want to have to pick up the make-up work that everyone else had a weekend to do, and I'd only get two afternoons for. I know there's a fourth and possibly a fifth reason, but I can't remember them now. Maybe I could make four the long drive and five I'd like to make something, but I know some people would complain about it. My grandparents are coming into town today. My mom always freaks out whenever they come down. My grandma is really anal about everything and she judges my mom all the time. She says that she's messy and can't cook well, and doesn't take care of the house... blah blah blah. I finally asked my mom why she cares so much about what Grandma thinks about her and she told me that Grandma will say all these bad things to my dad who will believe and agree with her because he's a mama's boy. That's why I have to marry someone who doesn't always get along with his parents, because if he does, then I'll get penalized for it. I've subscribed to a word-of-the-day thing from Merriam Webster. I think I'm going to post the word of the day on here everyday so everyone can learn a new word. Anyway, Rachel's freaking out about homework so it's time to depart. Here we go:
The Word of the Day for August 19 is: bruit \BROOT\ verb : report, rumor -- usually used with "about" Example sentence: The number of rescues by monks [of the Hospice of the Great St. Bernard] and their dogs is anyone's guess. The figure of 2,500 is bruited about. . . ."
Did you know? Back in the days of Middle English, the Anglo-French noun "bruit," meaning "clamor" or "noise," rattled into English. Soon English speakers were also using it to mean "report" or "rumor." (It applied especially to favorable reports.) We also began using "bruit" as a verb the way we used (and still occasionally do use) the verb "noise," with the meaning "to spread by rumor or report" (as in "the scandal was quickly noised about"). The English noun "bruit" is now considered archaic, but the verb lives on. Although "bruit" doesn't have a lot of close English relatives, it's a distant cousin of "bray."

TGI...Th?

My mother has just confronted me with a burning question. Would I be willing to miss school on Friday to go up to Austin to help Travis (brother) set up in his new dorm room and tour the UT campus following the set-up. Well, would I? Friday is an A-day meaning that I'll have Euro, English, Government, and Peer Tutor. I have no problem missing Euro (because Rachel is in that class and she can tell me everything I need to know), English and Peer Tutor, but would I really be able to cope with missing Government? We seem to be doing quite the load of work in Government, and I'm not sure how well I could handle missing the one day. On the other hand, it's a chance to actually tour a campus, something I have yet to do, and need to fairly soon. Of course, Travis has told me ever since he decided to go there that he didn't want me there, and I've always said that I don't want to go to a big school. I really don't know. Now, my question is, and this may be the deciding factor as to whether or not I go, would I be credited with an excused absence, or would the penalize me for looking into furthering my education? I specifically told myself I wouldn't go to a big school, and here I am, considering it, after sticking to my guns for years upon years. Speaking of which, where did that phrase come from? They should have a website that tells you where ALL the random phrases and sayings came from. I'd go there... but not to UT, because it's a big school.

Ethan's Memory Card

I found it to be amusing at the time. Looking back, not as much.

Oh Happy Dagger! This Is They Sheath.

Ugh.

A Day

AP Euro
AP English
AP Government
Peer Tutor

B Day

Adv. Economics
AP Calculus
AP Environmental Science
Adv. Astronomy

School is not going to be fun this year. The only class I'll really be able to enjoy is going to be AP Euro. I'm not going to like English. The teacher is a little too excited about books and such and I haven't really been a book person since seventh grade. I'm not going to be too fond of Government because I've no one to talk to, but Talley, who sits in the back of the room, whereas I sit in the front. Peer Tutor is the devil. I'll do nothing and she's going to make me show up everyday. I have Ms. Fitzpatrick, a new English 3 teacher. I specifically didn't want to be a peer tutor for and English class, but alas, it is my fate. Economics consists of no one that I've said more than 10 words to in my life and don't particularly care to get to know. Calculus isn't going to be as bad because I do have Mary Price and Danielle Burkinshaw, both of whom were in my PreCal class last year, but I'm afraid that I'll miss Eric Grady because he was in that class, too. I'll probably always feel like he should be there. Anyway, I think Environmental Science isn't going to be too bad. I really like the teacher, she seems fairly laid back. I've also got Kelsi Orsak in there. It won't be too bad. By the way, I take back my first statement. I'll also very much enjoy Astronomy. I really think that class is going to be fascinating. I'm quite looking forward to it. I was planning on exchanging Peer Tutor for Girls Soccer, since I had convinced myself to play this year, but from what I understand there will be a profucity of running. Something I'm really not good at as of right now. I'm in terrible shape. I plan to run on my own, but I don't know that I'll actually follow through with it. Dinner time.

Free At Last. Free At Last.

Thank Bob school has started. I never, in all my years, expected to hear myself say that... or... read it after I typed it. I guess I'm going to have to post more often now that I'm finally able to use the internet. So far I've really nothing to say. When I think of something, I'll let you know.