Shoot me.

I do not understand this Calculus stuff, and there is no one for me to ask about it because I have no friends, except Ashley, and she doesn't get it either. OK, so I have a few more than just Ashley, but they either don't know, or couldn't explain it the right way. I have the test tomorrow and so far I have a homework grade of... oh, let's just call it 0, and two known quiz grades of 65 and 70. There's another quiz that we took the other day, but I haven't gotten my results back on that one. I'd say it's around 20...ish. At this rate, I'm going to fail this six weeks. It makes me feel so stupid. I have no reason not to understand this stuff. I was there for all the lessons and listened a lot of the time, but I just can't do it. Well, I can do the Calculus part, but there's a whole lot of algebra involved and I just can't do the algebra dealing with tan, cot, sin, cos, sec, and csc. It's just a bunch of strange derivative stuff that I can't seem to handle. I plan on working on it all night tonight. I don't expect to be getting into college. Well, I don't expect to get into A&M right now. Maybe I could have 3 months ago, but now they're mostly filled up. There isn't much room for someone not in the top 10%. I'm not going to be able to send everything in until Tuesday of next week, and I may have to send them overnight. Although, according to the lady at the Clute Post Office, my Baylor application will not be qualified for overnight shipping. I'm pretty sure she was wrong though. Either way, it'll be able to make it there before the deadline on the following Tuesday. That is, I hope it does. I'm such a moron for waiting this long. Procrastination, in this case, is not a good thing.